Ive been alone before. Tons of times. Plenty of times.
But not like this. Never like this.
Never when you know everyone you know is gone, and theyre never coming back.
I never liked scary stories. Especially reading them when youre alone. But everywhere I look, its like everywhere is a potential horror story. I look away and think about happy thoughts. But they dont feel right. Nothing feels right.
It doesnt matter if its day or not. It feels dark all the time. I look at my hands. I cant feel my hands. Its like Im outside of my body. I try to think about happy thoughts again. But once you think about fear, its all you think about.
So I separate my self from the rest of the world. I make sure no thoughts leave or enter my mind.
But fear comes from the inside.
And when fear begins to crawl, it just keeps coming.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
~ Philippians 4:6-7
and that verse DOES sound familiar...